Showing posts with label Stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Stress. Show all posts
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Success in the face of defeat!
It has been a wonderful week. I started off on July 22 of this year at 311 lbs. Today, at my official BodyBugg weigh in, I am down to 292.8. I have lost 18 lbs in just over 1 week. Yes I know it's mostly water weight, but I'm still thrilled.
Now for the hard stuff:
I started a new job on the 16th. Wonderful job, good pay, what's the problem. Well, the problem is, I'd forgotten that I wont get my first paycheck until August 20th. WHAT?!?!?!?!? Yeah, the bills are coming due, and I'm scrambling. I worry that I'll have to eat whatever I can afford and that it will have a negative impact on my weight loss. Worse yet, I'm worried about things being cut off due to nonpayment until I can get this sorted out. I'm scrambling to find ways to not be late on bills. Hopefully the bank will call soon and say that they will refinance the car for me. I'm currently paying 21% interest with a high risk lender, so after 1 1/2 years of this, maybe it will turn out even better than if I hadn't run into this hiccup, but time will tell. RING, phone, RING darn it!
Regardless, I'm not giving up on this journey. I'm using it as fuel. Maybe the nervous energy will help me burn more calories as I pace the floors, and fingernails shouldn't have any calories, since I'm just chewing them off and spitting them out! So far, I have managed to still maintain my calorie deficit and not resort to binge eating, which is SO my M.O.! So I am considering this a victory for now.
Next week, I have to go stay in a hotel out of town for training classes. If the room has a microwave and fridge, I'll be preparing something to eat to take so that I 1. save money, and 2. can control my calorie intake. I've already found that planning ahead makes me the most successful. Now...what to make and take with me? Any ideas?
Saturday, December 31, 2011
The Day After the Date
Well, I switched my weight in day to today (Saturday) each week, so in 6 days I've lost 10 lbs. Im pleased with that number. I'd hoped to lose a couple more pounds yesterday, but since I DID have a date, and we DID go to a fabulous new Italian Restaurant, I'm pleased with no GAIN for the day!
Rather than have a shake this morning, I ate a bagel and cream cheese and some cantaloupe. Thats 11 Points Plus points. I plan today on having a shake for lunch and eating a little at the New Years Party tonight. I look forward to cutting loose a little this evening and ringing in a new year full of new possibilities.
I'm really struggling right now with what direction I want my life to take this year. As I may have mentioned before, I was in a car accident in 2010, and have been wanting out of nursing. So for the last 6 months I've been apprenticing as a dog groomer. At first I enjoyed it, but now I'm not so sure. Having finally received my settlement from Workers Comp, I have the choice of dropping a large chunk of it into renovating my garage into a grooming salon, or really evaluating my options and possibly going back to school. I just don't really know what I'd want to go back to school for. I've thought about psychology to become a therapist. I'd be good at it and it would surely be easy on my body. I would love to take some writing courses and try my hand at writing again, but my creative talents are so hit and miss lately. I used to be able to write constantly, but now I'm having difficulty creating characters. Maybe I just need to write a little every day. I think my blogs help me acheive that goal without feeling the pressure to write for a given period of time. And why am I putting all of this on this particular blog? Well, I want to track my relationship with food, and my feelings and stressers are a big part of that. So I'll frequently be sharing bits of my life here too.
There I go rambling again. I guess it's time to get back to the task at hand, namely cleaning house so that I can start off the new year in a sparkling environment. HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
Rather than have a shake this morning, I ate a bagel and cream cheese and some cantaloupe. Thats 11 Points Plus points. I plan today on having a shake for lunch and eating a little at the New Years Party tonight. I look forward to cutting loose a little this evening and ringing in a new year full of new possibilities.
I'm really struggling right now with what direction I want my life to take this year. As I may have mentioned before, I was in a car accident in 2010, and have been wanting out of nursing. So for the last 6 months I've been apprenticing as a dog groomer. At first I enjoyed it, but now I'm not so sure. Having finally received my settlement from Workers Comp, I have the choice of dropping a large chunk of it into renovating my garage into a grooming salon, or really evaluating my options and possibly going back to school. I just don't really know what I'd want to go back to school for. I've thought about psychology to become a therapist. I'd be good at it and it would surely be easy on my body. I would love to take some writing courses and try my hand at writing again, but my creative talents are so hit and miss lately. I used to be able to write constantly, but now I'm having difficulty creating characters. Maybe I just need to write a little every day. I think my blogs help me acheive that goal without feeling the pressure to write for a given period of time. And why am I putting all of this on this particular blog? Well, I want to track my relationship with food, and my feelings and stressers are a big part of that. So I'll frequently be sharing bits of my life here too.
There I go rambling again. I guess it's time to get back to the task at hand, namely cleaning house so that I can start off the new year in a sparkling environment. HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
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